Trying Not to Let a Haircut Kill My Confidence

Over Thanksgiving break I decided to get my haircut, and I wasn’t planning on doing anything major. The plan was like one or two inches to keep the lob (long bob) and layers to take weight off and let my natural waves come back through. Well… that didn’t happen. My typical hair dresser showed up twenty minutes late and didn’t listen to a word I said. Suddenly seven inches were gone and the back was maybe an inch in length. On top of that she put a ton of gel or something in my hair to make it look wet, and she took rat’s nest to a new level. I never wanted to be one of those girls who cry in the chair after a haircut so I held back the tears and tried not to say anything. As the worst was already done and you can’t put back on the hair you lost.

So I rushed home and instantly washed out all of the product and I had like an hour and a half to get ready before we were supposed to leave for the day. My makeup wasn’t done and I had to start all over on my hair as there was no way I could bare to go in public with at style. On top of all this, I ran out of shampoo and conditioner so I had to use a new one… and well on top of a cut I hate, the new products make my hair feel like grease. Like someone who hasn’t showered in several weeks though I literally just cleaned it. And my waves were gone. So just everything was going wrong. I styled it the best I could and went on my way. You would think compliments from literally everyone would make me feel better about it, but nope it only made me hate it more.

I love to style my hair in braids and ponytails, or do different things with it. But there’s literally nothing I can do. It’s too short to do anything with it. The front hair can’t even be pulled into a half ponytail or pinned back without pointing out the fact that there is no hair in the back. Plus the greasy shampoo and conditioner weren’t helping the matter. It just made things worse.

It’s now been two weeks since the cut and switching to the new shampoo and conditioner since I didn’t have anything else to use. My hair might be starting to get used to it now as I don’t feel grease every time after showering, but since I’m testing out a personalized formula with a company they are reviewing it with the chemist. So I might get something different, still waiting to hear on that. But at least that seems be getting better. I’m still not used to this hair cut and I don’t think I ever will be until it’s grown out. I half want to cry about it almost every time I look at it. And I never thought I would be one of those girls, if you’ve ever watched a makeover video from America’s Next Top Model there are always a few girls crying in the chair hating life. I used to think, toughen up you look amazing. Well, the tables have turned and I know how they feel.

I hate my hair, but I’m trying to put on a brave face and not let anyone see how unhappy I am about it. I won’t let everyone else see how un-confident I feel about my hair, so overdoing my makeup to feel glam is something I’m down for at the moment. And wigs. Sometimes I just can’t with it and I throw on a wig. I only have two at the moment but considering I’m going to be growing out my hair forever to get it back to a point I was happy, I’m going to need more wigs. Long wigs that I do braids with, throw into ponytails, and just have fun with since I just can’t with my hair at the moment.

Any tips on handling a bad haircut until it grows out to where I can get it reshaped? I would love to hear them since I’m going to be dealing with this mess for the next god knows how many months. Considering the front of my hair is maybe seven or eight inches long, while the back is one at the lowest point and three at the highest. Plus if my waves come in it looks messy and unevenly everywhere.

Love ya,

Mae Polzine

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