Thoughts From Hypomania

Thoughts From Hypomania

I haven't done a mental health post in a while, unless you count my "This is Fine" life update from last week. Mainly as I didn't have anything to say, and I'm sorry if this post is jumbled or sounds off. As I'm writing this post I'm in the peek of a hypomanic phase of my Bipolar II Disorder. And rarely can I ever tell one has happened but this one was as clear as day... mud... whatever. So I thought I would just write about my experience with this phase.…

View Post

This is Fine…

This is Fine…

I haven't done an update post in ages and honestly I've written then deleted similar posts countless times now. But considering I'm posting way less than I normally do, I'm going to do a stream of consciousness where I just write everything that comes into my mind and no editing out my thoughts. And the reason I haven't posted this is mainly I wasn't sure how it would go over. Since a lot of it is related to mental health and work, and neither are really things I talk about on this blog. I've done a few posts on my mental health but absolutely nothing other than a mention on my about page when it comes to work.…

View Post

Hi I’m Mae… and I’m a Shopaholic

Hi I’m Mae… and I’m a Shopaholic

Yeah, I don't know how else to put it. And though I could've done this with one of my Let's Talk About segments, this just felt right. I have a terrible relationship with money and it's something I've been working on fixing. It's something I've never been great at. And though I don't want to pin part of this on my bipolar disorder, as it's a characteristic of hypo-manic behavior and I don't know if it's due to that or not.…

View Post

So You’ve Had a Poor Mental Health Week…

So You’ve Had a Poor Mental Health Week…

I don't know what it is about this month or the last few weeks to be honest, but my mental state has been all over the place. Including just running out of almost all of my creative juices, hence the lack of posts lately. Having Bipolar Disorder this does happen, but I swear my phases have been getting worse every time I dip into one. And this last depressive episode has been the worst one I've had in years. So I thought I'd have a conversation about it and how I'm trying to pick myself up or cope with this lately episode.…

View Post

How Getting a Dog Changed My Life & Made Me a Better Person

How Getting a Dog Changed My Life & Made Me a Better Person

I have been a massive dog lover all of my life. Hell my first words were dog and I didn't stop repeating that word until my parents got me one. Granted it was the family dog and followed my mom around like a shadow. And I will always advocate for big dogs, they make excellent pillows to rest on or a shoulder to cry on if you need one. Now if you've been reading my blog for a few years, or even just a little while you'll know I do not have a big dog. I have a rather small dog named Pixie who is going to be five this year. And ever since getting my own dog, I have such a better appreciation for them then I ever did before. Not that my first dog, Sadie, wasn't amazing. She was my absolute best friend but she wasn't mine at the end of the day. So these are all of the things that I've noticed since I got Pixie Bug and just general things about dogs.…

View Post

Common Myths About Bipolar Disorder That Aren’t True

Common Myths About Bipolar Disorder That Aren’t True

If you've been reading my blog for a while, you know I have Bipolar Disorder Type II. And I've heard it all before and listen to particularly everyone say something incorrect about the disorder. Though the general population has increased awareness about the disorder formerly known as manic depression. Yet there are so many myths still floating around, some of them bother me a lot while others are just annoyances.…

View Post

Open Letter to the Girl With the Scars

Open Letter to the Girl With the Scars

There's a person I see almost every day, who has scars running up and down her arm. Every day I see them and I think about to the days where I used to self harm. The scars on my arms are gone and the ones on my wrist are covered up by a tattoo, but they're still there. I can still see them especially the one that I remade over and over again for years: a heart with a cross underneath. Anyone else wouldn't be able to tell they are there but I will always see them. Then I see her scars that look recent, and I want to say something but I can never bring myself to mention it as I just remember back to when I did that. And I never wanted anyone to mention anything or call attention to it. So I just wanted to write an open letter that she may never see, but if it helps someone else out there then that works too.…

View Post

Things That Have Helped My Mental Health Lately

Things That Have Helped My Mental Health Lately

If you have been following me on social media, and happened to see any of my posts pop of in your feed (as I know several platforms mess that up) you will know I've been dealing with a depressive phase in my bipolar cycle. And it was a rather moderate-severe one, which is something I haven't had in a while since switching off of medication almost four years ago. With this I honestly thought I was going to completely fall off the wagon and resume some of my old addictions. But I didn't because of these items, and they have helped me return to a more stable ground though I know it's only temporary and I need to go in to get medication again for my Bipolar Disorder. …

View Post