Thoughts From Hypomania
I haven't done a mental health post in a while, unless you count my "This is Fine" life update from last week. Mainly as I didn't have anything to say, and I'm sorry if this post is jumbled or sounds off. As I'm writing this post I'm in the peek of a hypomanic phase of my Bipolar II Disorder. And rarely can I ever tell one has happened but this one was as clear as day... mud... whatever. So I thought I would just write about my experience with this phase.…
View PostOpen Letter to the Girl With the Scars
There's a person I see almost every day, who has scars running up and down her arm. Every day I see them and I think about to the days where I used to self harm. The scars on my arms are gone and the ones on my wrist are covered up by a tattoo, but they're still there. I can still see them especially the one that I remade over and over again for years: a heart with a cross underneath. Anyone else wouldn't be able to tell they are there but I will always see them. Then I see her scars that look recent, and I want to say something but I can never bring myself to mention it as I just remember back to when I did that. And I never wanted anyone to mention anything or call attention to it. So I just wanted to write an open letter that she may never see, but if it helps someone else out there then that works too.…
View PostThings That Have Helped My Mental Health Lately
If you have been following me on social media, and happened to see any of my posts pop of in your feed (as I know several platforms mess that up) you will know I've been dealing with a depressive phase in my bipolar cycle. And it was a rather moderate-severe one, which is something I haven't had in a while since switching off of medication almost four years ago. With this I honestly thought I was going to completely fall off the wagon and resume some of my old addictions. But I didn't because of these items, and they have helped me return to a more stable ground though I know it's only temporary and I need to go in to get medication again for my Bipolar Disorder. …
View PostLet’s Talk About… Mental Breakdowns
This month instead of a life lately, I'm just going to do a let's talk about as I haven't had anything super interesting or exciting happen other than the one thing I can't talk about… As some of you may know, I have bipolar disorder which can be a handful some days. I've been working for years to develop coping techniques so I can't need to be on medication. Granted it doesn't always work, but by the time I finally start thinking about needing to go in the cycle has passed. Then I decide not to go in because they're just going to give me the Depression Questionnaire, and I won't register as I'm not in that cycle anymore. They seriously need a separate questionnaire for those with Bipolar Disorder as they can be in a hypomanic phase or in between phases. So not going in just allows mental breakdowns with depression to kick in down the road. Such as right now, I'm in the middle of a mental breakdown thanks to that issue I mentioned a few days ago that I can't talk about.…
View PostBipolar Disorder Type II – The Update
Recently, I've been noticing that a blog post that I made when I first created my blog has been getting a lot of traffic. And that's my story with Bipolar Disorder Type II. As it has been a while since I wrote that post which was back in June 2015, I thought it would be a good idea to make an updated post. And this has been something I've been debating on making for a while, but just haven't figured out the words that I wanted to say.…
View PostSelf-Medicating Bipolar Disorder
I really wanted to talk about mental disorders and mental illness today, specifically Bipolar Disorder, and how I cope or treat my symptoms. As this is something I often get questions about, as people who have been reading my blog for a long time since before when it was on Tumblr, know that I do not take medication to treat my mental disorder. Some of these questions include: why did you decide to be self-medicated, what do you do to help maintain your moods without medication, etc.?…
View PostTips for Battling Anxiety and Panic Attacks
On an almost monthly basis, I become overwhelmed with anxiety or encounter panic attacks. Mainly because I automatically bottle up all emotions until they reach a breaking point, often without realizing that I'm doing that in the first place. And these attacks can be crippling taking away complete focus or time away from other things I need to be doing like work, everyday life, or activities. And it's really hard to snap out of them and resume what I was doing previously. I am by no means a subject matter expert in this area but I have learned quite a few things to help when these attacks come on. And just dealing with anxiety in general. Which I thought would be helpful to share.…
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