I haven’t done a life update in quite some time, but considering I’ve been insanely busy to a point where I haven’t been active on social media since April, I thought I might as well do one. Especially considering I might not be back to how things used to be until August. So this life update is probably going to be insanely short, as everything boils down to three things: work, moving, and mental health.
I haven’t done a mental health post in a while, unless you count my “This is Fine” life update from last week. Mainly as I didn’t have anything to say, and I’m sorry if this post is jumbled or sounds off. As I’m writing this post I’m in the peek of a hypomanic phase of my Bipolar II Disorder. And rarely can I ever tell one has happened but this one was as clear as day… mud… whatever. So I thought I would just write about my experience with this phase.
I haven’t done an update post in ages and honestly I’ve written then deleted similar posts countless times now. But considering I’m posting way less than I normally do, I’m going to do a stream of consciousness where I just write everything that comes into my mind and no editing out my thoughts. And the reason I haven’t posted this is mainly I wasn’t sure how it would go over. Since a lot of it is related to mental health and work, and neither are really things I talk about on this blog. I’ve done a few posts on my mental health but absolutely nothing other than a mention on my about page when it comes to work.
I’ve been feeling rather uninspired lately but over Labor Day weekend I took a really cute photo with my dog and I wanted to use it somehow. I typically never do blog posts inspired by photographs I’ve taken. But this one got me thinking just about how much Pixie has helped me over the past almost five years. Especially in the mental health department… and honestly I don’t think I’ve written anything about that on my blog. Or if I have, I didn’t see it in a quick search of my previous posts. So why not discuss it with that photo I love so much of Pixie Bug and myself.
I don’t know what it is about this month or the last few weeks to be honest, but my mental state has been all over the place. Including just running out of almost all of my creative juices, hence the lack of posts lately. Having Bipolar Disorder this does happen, but I swear my phases have been getting worse every time I dip into one. And this last depressive episode has been the worst one I’ve had in years. So I thought I’d have a conversation about it and how I’m trying to pick myself up or cope with this lately episode.
Now this post isn’t to say that these skills will cure your anxiety, but they can help you get through it a little bit easier. These are the things that I do when I have a lot of anxiety and stress. Which I have been having a lot of recently, due to both work and the fact that my family has been staying at my place for the last week. So I haven’t really gotten the chance to play video games or film videos, since I just feel the need to entertain them versus doing my usual things to settle myself down. But there are a few things that I’m still doing that are helping me out with managing my anxiety.