The last few weeks have been a rollercoaster. Mostly because some old wounds were opened up after I got the news that my father had a seizure. I don’t talk about it or him at all, mostly due to being trained as a kid never to talk about it. But I’m trying not to be so locked up about everything in my life. Basically to make a LONG story short, I haven’t heard from him in seven years after A LOT of things happened. It wasn’t like I didn’t know what happened around him, since my mom is still friends with his neighbors. So, we got informed of things that was going on. But these last two weeks have been a whole other level. I’m not going to get into details of it. But it’s made me think about things, specifically things that I need to work on. So, that’s what I wanted to focus on in this post.
Now this post isn’t to say that these skills will cure your anxiety, but they can help you get through it a little bit easier. These are the things that I do when I have a lot of anxiety and stress. Which I have been having a lot of recently, due to both work and the fact that my family has been staying at my place for the last week. So I haven’t really gotten the chance to play video games or film videos, since I just feel the need to entertain them versus doing my usual things to settle myself down. But there are a few things that I’m still doing that are helping me out with managing my anxiety.
If you have been following me on social media, and happened to see any of my posts pop of in your feed (as I know several platforms mess that up) you will know I’ve been dealing with a depressive phase in my bipolar cycle. And it was a rather moderate-severe one, which is something I haven’t had in a while since switching off of medication almost four years ago. With this I honestly thought I was going to completely fall off the wagon and resume some of my old addictions. But I didn’t because of these items, and they have helped me return to a more stable ground though I know it’s only temporary and I need to go in to get medication again for my Bipolar Disorder.
I don’t know what to title this blog post. And I have half a mind not to even post it. As I feel like my blog has become very editorial through my own doing, but it makes writing personal blog posts a lot harder. So I’ve been debating on stripping back the blog a little and throw away the editorial calendar. Don’t get me wrong I’m still going to do reviews and whatnot. But the way it’s been going is a bit too much for me. And doesn’t feel personal anymore. So I’m hitting the reset button. I hope you don’t mind.
This month instead of a life lately, I’m just going to do a let’s talk about as I haven’t had anything super interesting or exciting happen other than the one thing I can’t talk about… As some of you may know, I have bipolar disorder which can be a handful some days. I’ve been working for years to develop coping techniques so I can’t need to be on medication. Granted it doesn’t always work, but by the time I finally start thinking about needing to go in the cycle has passed. Then I decide not to go in because they’re just going to give me the Depression Questionnaire, and I won’t register as I’m not in that cycle anymore. They seriously need a separate questionnaire for those with Bipolar Disorder as they can be in a hypomanic phase or in between phases. So not going in just allows mental breakdowns with depression to kick in down the road. Such as right now, I’m in the middle of a mental breakdown thanks to that issue I mentioned a few days ago that I can’t talk about.
Recently, I’ve been noticing that a blog post that I made when I first created my blog has been getting a lot of traffic. And that’s my story with Bipolar Disorder Type II. As it has been a while since I wrote that post which was back in June 2015, I thought it would be a good idea to make an updated post. And this has been something I’ve been debating on making for a while, but just haven’t figured out the words that I wanted to say.